Tonight....

Memories, thoughts, daydreams, going back, looking forward and the here and the now. Sometimes I wish I could be everywhere at once - the past, the present, the future catching the best of all moments. Often times I feel this as I listen to music which moves me the same as when when I look at pictures of friends, family and places once visited  - which mean the most to me. Music...wow...somehow it can make me feel excited, happy, at peace while at other times a bit sad at how things are or how things could be. I find it strange, perplexing and yet at the same time intriguing that I could let music take me to so many places so fast. Is it just me or does this happen to others as well? When I let it move me in one way it gets me to moving...moving out of slumber and sometimes murkiness. Like now.....I wanted to write that music (the kind that was just on before it switched to the next song, but then it just changed which effected what I wanted to write) can sometimes make me feel as if I have some untapped, hidden super power or gift which I haven't yet discovered - like I could be something or do something awesome, something great which I have yet to do and I love this feeling. Does it mean anything or is it just a feeling? I don't know, but I like it and in a sense it does allow me to stretch myself and move to a place in my mind where perhaps I wouldn't have allowed myself to go to had it not been for the music. Am I capable of being more, something better? I want to be and at other times I find myself surviving through the day.....making ends meet. It can be difficult to get off the couch and get myself moving and motivated out of the daily grind of monotony, but it's possible, right? It has to be, otherwise won't we just waste away, slipping into a dull state of mind ending in unhappiness and bitterness directed towards ourselves, those we love and others around us? Perhaps the gift for me tonight is that I did get off the couch literally, turned on some music from my library - allowing it to motivate me into a better place, while at the same time moving me to sign into my blog - a blog I haven't written anything in for 2 1/2 years and write which helped me to be creative for a while - escaping the feeling of going through the motions of the day!